Artworking; August 2018. Stimming and the great outdoors part 2

Intense work through August, finishing this diptych OR SO I THOUGHT

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Onwards to the second part of this piece to make it mean what I want it to mean, beyond ‘just a landscape’

 The first grid overlay done. I didnt like totally love it but cracked on to see how it would work out. Spoiler it didnt work out

The first grid overlay done. I didnt like totally love it but cracked on to see how it would work out. Spoiler it didnt work out

Second layer goes down

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The grid is taken from a board game design by my son E, from whom the 'stimming' component stems. Its the actual board for the game to be played upon, where markers move around governed by a throw of the dice, in the direction of the arrows on the grid. Byzantine in structure, its a design that is unfathomable to neurotypical minds, and beyond comprehension unless you are a shit-load cleverer than I. It also has a weaponised prison bars effect, and my intent is that it represents the invisible wall between our life here at home and the world beyond, the isolation of life with autism in the suburbs. We dont get out too much, because outside our home, as he sees it, the world is out of control.

There are two layers of grid, slightly offset, just as there's two of us and I make sure he’s not on his own with it.

So we’re recluses & I will expound upon this narrative at another time, but at this stage all I can say is that the effect I wanted from this layering disappointed me. Its Sennelier oil pastel & mica pigment, took feckin ages & a lot of maneuvering to draw up. I dont like it. I think its the textural effect of the pastels across the canvas. The technique is wrong. Something is awfully unconvincing. I am having a TECHNICAL CRISIS

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I get it, it works to a point and then it doesnt. It hasnt worked. I hang head down, way down low

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Stripped it off

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Fck

Fcking left marks

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and again.

Fck

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Panic

Diversion. I know, DOTS. Dots? Really?

 Whatever. I hate it now

Whatever. I hate it now

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?

? smaller dots ?

This is actually quite neat…I’ll save this & do this on something else sometime

I got the ghost marks off

 Confirming line marks are gone and taking a moment to linger on the beauty of drawing with pastels. I love them

Confirming line marks are gone and taking a moment to linger on the beauty of drawing with pastels. I love them

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:(

Poor Puppy

 Poor Puppy had surgery for bladder stones. Shes feeling better now

Poor Puppy had surgery for bladder stones. Shes feeling better now

Totally abandoning the story line to worry about Puppy, I cant lose her

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$820

Time wasting counting the money box, which leaves me feeling A/ a little bit reassured of security and B/ panicked with low volume of security; alors, the double knife edge upon which I eternally dance, between not enough & no fucking way is that enough

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The next bit

now there’ll be a Part Two the Second, the next bit where I do as I had originally planned.

I think it’ll work out ok